It's time.

I don't know if I'll be emo or dramatic typing this, but I'll just type whatever floats on my head.


But first, UR's status
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Apparently there were pics and accounts I failed
to identify if they were deleted because there
was no record on the log files.

Now on my theory, the hacker didn't exactly
"guess" your passwords that you had to make it complex.

Instead, I think he used PHP and SQL injections in hacking and adding new strings of code just by manipulating what you type on the URL.

Believe me, I used injections on our school's website before
Yeah, obviously grades are protected, but my intention was just to link the form from another website anyways lol.

But yeah, I locked the password recovery and register pages, so to log in just use your old passwords. If you can't, that'd mean your account had unfortunately been deleted by the hacker.

Nobody can sign up for the time being.
I'll post more news soon, please hang tight.

Also, I'll have to give a big thanks to for alerting me on Gmail about the attack, so I managed to hide the folders before more damage would've been done... Thanks CR~^^
(Explains the sudden 404 errors)
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Now, with what I believe people are talking on behind my back.


I AM NOT BEING ABUSED
Sure you outnumber me if you'd vote for it,
but guess what. YOU. ARE. NOT. ME.

How would you know what's behind my mind by just looking at the situation without even asking?

Okay I'm sorry,
Yeah I've been a good friend to many,
a brother, a teacher, a preacher,
or an idol and inspiration perhaps.
(and a son to my mum and dad *AshMewtwo and *Pikachu20 xD)
And you feel bad or worry about me..


So for the people who talked to me about this, or is talking behind my back about this.

I can't say if I'm blinded or not,
but for sure she is NOT using me as a money bank.

If you want the truth, fine, I'll rid the riddles and speak straight out for once.



<sub>If I were to speak, I'll admit she's changed a lot.
I sense selfishness and pride when I hear the ME, MINE, and I's
I see tyranny when it's always "do as I say", "I own this place, I'm the boss" and "nobody orders me around".

I feel stupid when once she used to depend on me as I'm the one who always stood by her side in ups or downs, the one who'd pick her up when she'd fall or when the world turns against her. The one who'd listen to her problems and try to help or comfort. Always the one to cheer her up, keep her company, and simply just be there. The one who just worries to no end...

But now I get easily ignored 'cause she got in touch with her old RL buddies again.

Life is unfair, I know. Reason doesn't coincide with emotion, I know.
But what happened then was too much for me to take that I was moments away from making the final decision to leave for good.

That's when I realized, what then?
If I leave, what next?

and each night I played to myself the memories that's in my subconscious, puzzling them out and feeling those things that I once felt. Which led me to make my 100th deviation worth... Cherishing.

With what I do, I spend money, not 'cause she asked me to. How I got paid hosting for UR, how I gave her the dA sub. She didn't ask for those, I gave them out of my free will.


But I don't know why,
Despite these changes, I still see the goods over the bads in her.
Loving her for who she is, and the changes that come with it.

I'm not asking for sympathy, and words won't be enough anymore.
But I just like to be heard.
I've told you countless times before, I love you with all my life,
and guess what... no matter how many times I get shattered...
I still do<3</sub>




"Judge me all you want, but only I can change myself"

Sorry if I'm being a jerk at times, please forgive my mood swings...
There are just times that I prefer not talking at all than suddenly exploding on someone..

Now if everyone will excuse me,
I'm gonna isolate myself for a little bit too. Still gonna fix things up on UR, and I'm still open for questions/problems regarding it. Just note or email me.

Oh and.. [link]